|Usually I don't like little sayings like this,|
but this illustrates my point
Recently, I've taken the opportunity to refresh and gain just another couple centimeters of understanding my life. And you know what, things aren't always as bad as they seem. Despite my troubles and trials over the last couple of weeks, I've learned SO MUCH about who I am and what I want my life to look like. Mistakes can cost you a plethora of problems and guilt unless you take it in a positive way. There is no need to look on life with regrets as long as you are gaining a little more perspective along the way.
I mean, we make wrong value judgments all the time. Case study: We all hated Snape, even if we knew he was going to be a good guy, all along the road with Harry. And then during the last book, we all cried because his oh-so-tender heart: thank you J.K. Rowling for playing with our minds and giving us little refreshers along the way. Finally, at the end of the book: we loaded the whole page and everything worked out. (Well, not really for Snape. His life seemed kind of miserable.)
So, just some thoughts on what my refresh button has shown me and the little "goodies" that I've found in my life the last couple weeks and months: I am a people person. As much as I love writing on my computer to unknown faces and people, I love being with people. The days I am alone without being to others are the days that I make my biggest mistakes out of boredom and loneliness. I tend to carve my identity from being with them. Some people say I haven't "found" my identity yet. Well, I say: others are my personality and selfdom. It is just ingrained in who I am.
Next: I need to determine what makes me happy and live for it. Enough of this blind following of what people tell me to do, how to act, or secrets to success in life. I appreciate the advice and will gladly consider most of it, but I can no longer simply live my life the way others dictate. It is time for my choices to define my path. One of the things that I know makes me happy is ... being with people. So, since I'm such a people person, know I need a job where I am in the thick of ... people. Teaching seems like a good fit. Human Resources also is a great fit. Either way, I'm closer to understanding who I am and what will make me happy.
And you know, even though I've realized this, the next refresh might show me a larger part of the puzzle that slightly modifies this. You never know.
So, take a step back, y'all. Look around and see what you have going for you. And don't fret about an inability to see the whole page. Just wait with a little anticipation for that day when you've discovered you. Try loading other pages as well a long the way to understand the world around you. Whenever you are discouraged, depressed, or confuddled: refresh. It will make more sense in a second.
Peace everyone. I hope the sappiness of this didn't show my true inner weaknesses.